Losing my religion...Then gaining it back again.
I have decided recently to reconfirm my faith. For those of you who dont know me, I am a christian and have been one since I was 11 or 12. But in these past few years I have to admit I have been far from Christian like. Straying from the flock I guess you could call it, but in saying that, I somehow never managed to stray TOO far.
God was always at the back of my mind, and though I tried to keep him back there I continued to pray daily. My prayers were like bad re-runs. The same old thing over and over again "Dear God please forgive me, blah blah.." it was as if I was reciting a nursery rhyme, just going through the motions, then after I had asked forgiveness I would just go do it again. It was a vicious cycle. I still believed in Jesus but I didnt walk the talk: I didn't attend church (mind you I still don't..) or read The Bible, and soon enough God didn't seem like a significant part of my life anymore. Dont get me wrong here: I wasn't like BAD or anything (far from it by some peoples standards..) I think I just..you know, strayed. I got too caught up with what was going on around me rather than Him.
Then recently things have started to change, a weird chain of events that has somehow opened my eyes to what I have been doing. Its like I have been in a dull sleep, and have been awaken. With some encouragement from friends (and me asking alot of questions) I have now recommited myself to Jesus.
Its still a bit difficult for me as its like I am trying to learn new habits (ie. reading the Bible daily), but I know with Gods help I will get there. Amen!
"In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead." James 2:17.
God was always at the back of my mind, and though I tried to keep him back there I continued to pray daily. My prayers were like bad re-runs. The same old thing over and over again "Dear God please forgive me, blah blah.." it was as if I was reciting a nursery rhyme, just going through the motions, then after I had asked forgiveness I would just go do it again. It was a vicious cycle. I still believed in Jesus but I didnt walk the talk: I didn't attend church (mind you I still don't..) or read The Bible, and soon enough God didn't seem like a significant part of my life anymore. Dont get me wrong here: I wasn't like BAD or anything (far from it by some peoples standards..) I think I just..you know, strayed. I got too caught up with what was going on around me rather than Him.
Then recently things have started to change, a weird chain of events that has somehow opened my eyes to what I have been doing. Its like I have been in a dull sleep, and have been awaken. With some encouragement from friends (and me asking alot of questions) I have now recommited myself to Jesus.
Its still a bit difficult for me as its like I am trying to learn new habits (ie. reading the Bible daily), but I know with Gods help I will get there. Amen!
"In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead." James 2:17.
