Before I say "I do."
Currently listening to: 'Its my life" - No Doubt.
If you were to ask me to marry you now, sorry but the answer would have to be 'No'. Not because I can not love or commit but because I am not ready to make that commitment.
See, marriage to me, is the ultimate expression of love. In marriage you are pledging your life to each other and therefore you become a part of each other - two people becoming bonded as one. Forever. Yes, Forever. Am I sounding hoplessly romantic? You better believe it.
In the past year or so I've been to a few wedding engagements, and like myself the people getting engaged are in their early twentys. I am extremely happy for each of them that they have found 'The One' and choose to consummate their relationships in marriage at such a tender age. But at these events I find myself asking myself if this would be the life I would like to lead: straight out of university, married at 23, children at 24. Uhm, no I dont think so.
To be married to someone you have to be sure of who you are as a person. To be in a union where you and your husband ultimately become a part of each other you have to know youself. The way I see it is like this: 'if I am not sure about who I am, how will my husband know who I am?' or 'how can I look after a marriage if I can't even look after myself?'. Life experiance moulds you into who you are, by giving myself ample time to mature unbiasedly I am doing my future husband a favor by being a more well rounded person. If you know who you are at 19, 20 or 21 then kudos to you, as I surely didn't and even now I am not sure.
I am still learning new things about myself everyday. I am still learning a career for myself, and I am still learning from my life mistakes. I want to be able to have time to myself to be an individual, and to discover my own personal relationship with God.
I know by doing this some of you out there maybe thinking that I maybe missing opportunitys, and yes if he will not wait for me then maybe you are right, maybe I'll never even end up getting married and become one of those crazy ladies with a house full of cats. Life never adheres to the time line you set it, but this is something I feel I have to experiance before I make that ultimate commitment to anyone and say 'I do".
I've never been afraid of being alone, and though I maybe physically alone, I know I will never really be alone.
If you were to ask me to marry you now, sorry but the answer would have to be 'No'. Not because I can not love or commit but because I am not ready to make that commitment.
See, marriage to me, is the ultimate expression of love. In marriage you are pledging your life to each other and therefore you become a part of each other - two people becoming bonded as one. Forever. Yes, Forever. Am I sounding hoplessly romantic? You better believe it.
In the past year or so I've been to a few wedding engagements, and like myself the people getting engaged are in their early twentys. I am extremely happy for each of them that they have found 'The One' and choose to consummate their relationships in marriage at such a tender age. But at these events I find myself asking myself if this would be the life I would like to lead: straight out of university, married at 23, children at 24. Uhm, no I dont think so.
To be married to someone you have to be sure of who you are as a person. To be in a union where you and your husband ultimately become a part of each other you have to know youself. The way I see it is like this: 'if I am not sure about who I am, how will my husband know who I am?' or 'how can I look after a marriage if I can't even look after myself?'. Life experiance moulds you into who you are, by giving myself ample time to mature unbiasedly I am doing my future husband a favor by being a more well rounded person. If you know who you are at 19, 20 or 21 then kudos to you, as I surely didn't and even now I am not sure.
I am still learning new things about myself everyday. I am still learning a career for myself, and I am still learning from my life mistakes. I want to be able to have time to myself to be an individual, and to discover my own personal relationship with God.
I know by doing this some of you out there maybe thinking that I maybe missing opportunitys, and yes if he will not wait for me then maybe you are right, maybe I'll never even end up getting married and become one of those crazy ladies with a house full of cats. Life never adheres to the time line you set it, but this is something I feel I have to experiance before I make that ultimate commitment to anyone and say 'I do".
I've never been afraid of being alone, and though I maybe physically alone, I know I will never really be alone.
